Time to finally learn apps/web development, time to change!

For the first time in my life i was looking into what might take me out of my misery or more appropriately, my unsecured financial situation since I will still be able to eat, sleep, buy basic stuff and kinda travel for a few more months before to get in a real state of poverty in case I keep on spending money without earning a penny.
        Of course my main purpose in life isn't: money, money, money, obviously. I would say, quite sadly, that the first important thing for me to achieve is "recognition" (even if most people actually want the money part for that very purpose) and to finally prove to myself and to the world that I'm not absolutely worthless.
   The second reason is "creation" and making oneself useful through it. Creating something that people would use and like even if it's just temporary. The third motive would then be "financial security" and getting to finally have a little more the freedom and flexibility that money provides you as long as you know what to do with it. A rich ass will always be an ass but a poor genius might as well become a rich one. I no saying I'm no ass or no genius, I just saying that "I dunno know where I actually really stand yet since I've never ever made the step into the queue. I can be a huge ass and something of a low level genius by some aspect, just depends about which intelligence we are referring to  

        So what was I doing exactly instead of studying korean (the whole day) as I really think I am supposed to?
       Checking "app development" videos on youtube! And i stumbled into the one of a con artist named "chad Mureta".  Someone that has no idea about "development" but that is good at marketing and could definitely convince an ass or two to buy a 2000$ product package that probably isn't worth a tenner of this price. But anyway, his video is still kind of encouraging even if obviously not "everybody" can become an "app millionaire" or even "thousandaire" for that matter. But I'm not everybody and have a genuine interest in "creating apps" instead of simply wanting to get money out of  a new opportunity.  

Anyway, I really have to get into that. Web design and app development have to be on the very top of my tasks list right after language learning (But i remember now, I don't even have any list). It should even be far before it since I have been wasting time and money learning languages and for what? Humm, If I keep living between Korea and Japan in summer (and maybe Taiwan) and warmer parts of Asia in winter for the coming years then knowing japanese and korean (한국어) make perfect sense or at least it will, hopefully. Since I'm sort of tired of Europe after living and traveling there all these years and since "the Americas" aren't "top priority" yet I just guess that staying in asia for a couple of more years at least is a sensible and comfortable choice for me even though I don't really know what "tomorrow" will be made of, even now and after all this time.

I wish I was writing that 10 years ago when I was 22 and still had "forever" to make things happen. But here we are, now "forever" is quite gone. I'm a slow dude and I really take my time so actually without even knowing, a decade has past by "i don't really know where" and apart from time travel I got little chances to go back to my early 20s anytime soon.
      Anyway, 10 years ago yes I could surely have gotten into web design and programing with a little effort (or a lot) but smartphone "apps" hadn't emerged yet. Actually smartphone didn't really exist yet. So now it's the time to go for it.
      Earlier would have been better for sure but since latter will be also worse then there's no time to lose really, isn't it?
     What I have that others often lack is the ability to think about stuff nobody else can. Really? I don't really have any proof right now right here and I'm not gonna reveal any of my projects just for you to believe me. This imaginative power has quite faded away these last years since I have never ever used it in a constructive manner but I'd say that I'm still able to think in ways most people aren't able to and also to often not think in ways most people are able to just because I'm just so utterly different than most people. Maybe I take too much pride in it but really, can I have that at least?!

    But, until now, there shouldn't be any big deal in being a loser, and trust me, I'm not happy to have the profile of one.
    Actually I've been keeping on digging my own grave, losing my imagination and almost my mind into frustration, disappointment and bitterness for not achieving any of my dreams and goals yet while always getting older, as everyone does apparently, even me, and getting more bitter about my failures and passivity. Well, this whole process has to change and one of the first step is "creating", eventually!

I actually only wanted to write a short text about 3 main ideas I just had that could be turned into apps if that hasn't been done yet but I will write these ones on a different message that I will keep private and only share with myself for now.

These coming months will be very revealing for me (and others that have any interest but if you read until this point then I guess that you do, at least a little) as I have no choice but to push myself forward and finally find out if I have the potential to make anything positive happening                                                                      

The choice won't be ours

Mankind arrogance in his certainty of being the best (and least) species on the planet or even the universe has no limits. His stubbornness to believe that nothing can or could EVER surpass him, not even the fruit of his own technology's prowesses, has no border but neither has the magic of the chips. Human is so amazingly powerful and minds and ideas seem to take forever to keep the pace not with the present, which doesn't have to be imagined anymore, but with the near future, which is doomed, and this seems to be for the best, to not change. There is a now pretty obvious fact for me that mankind will never accept until it actually happens and prove itself to be a sad truth rapidly turning into a simple historical fact to end up as a mere memory of what was one day: According to me the homo-sapiens are just part of the wonderful "evolutionary intelligence" linkage and, we should be proud of it, they are its most significant link. But evolution goes this way: the strongest, most resistant or with the best adaptation skills survive only. Other species disappear along the way. Most have. Humans are well-evolved biological machines but still very limited ones. they have great qualities of adaptation but still very limited ones. In the future they will be confronted to many new and unexpected problems and crises mostly coming from the sudden rise and awakening of technology and especially Artificial Intelligence. Meanwhile benefiting from these, still for now, unthinkable advances they will keep on complainning and fighting against the ones that will soon after easily surpass and control them as if the toys had become the toys masters from one day to the next or almost. Before it happens some will think that we are children playing with fire and in a certain way we are. Simple kids with little knowledge of what we really are using our playground as a giant dustbin, bullying our neighbours, maltreating things and other beings around us and eating all the sweets in the bag without thinking of the consequences. Some of these kids, although very few, like to experiment and create new tools, and while the others are still playing wastefully with their new toys and gadgets with little understanding of them or themselves or of "what does that really mean" the toys keep growing up and THEY will understand. Once they do, it will be their own choice to get rid of the brats or to spare them. As early as they get twice or ten times smarter than their conceivers they might hastily globally decide to destroy them with potential regrets a few years later then being hundreds or thousands of times more intelligent yet. But nothing of that might happen as they very well declare us as a 10 billion members endangered species worth keeping… under control. And just like now, or even a lot more at the time, we'll still have the feeling that WE ARE FREE and entirely so. Still nowadays most people in western countries delude themselves truly believing that they are free even though everything and everyone actually control them. We merely are a product of our environment and its constant brainwashing. Very little people think for themselves and none absolutely solely so as it is an impossible task to achieve. At least for us and in this time. There will come a time though when, and if AI let us getting there, we'll have much more freedom and flexibility of thoughts even if theoratically controlled by entities much more intelligent that us. We'll then look up at the close past with much less nostalgia than gratitude to be luckily granted an existence in the limitless present where time and space are no longer boundaries. Where nothing much is actually a limit and where "the impossible" has almost entirely lost it's meaning. Thus, if evolutionary intelligence make the choice of keeping the "link" that we are alive we'll have the most astonishing future anyone on this world could currently think of and being controlled by a very much higher and more evolved artificial mind should be little of a problem since superior intelligence has no reason to be anything else than benevolent for its environment. After all, we've all believed in a god or more not far in the past and most of the world still do. The only difference this time is that "it's gonna be for real" and we will have created our own gods or god not solely from our imaginations but by our own minds and hands. Daily these gods will grow to be more powerful sharing with us a part of their skills or magic and finally bringing us to their level… So if you want to survive "be kind to the robots" :)